Nott

Since mortal life is frail,And my mind shrinks from lofty themes deterr'd,But small the trust which I in either feel:Yet hope I that my wail,Which vainly I in silence would conceal,Shall, where I wish, where most it ought, be heard.Beautiful eyes! wherein Love makes his nest,To you my song its feeble descant turns,Slow of itself, but now by passion spurr'd;Who sings of you is blest,And from his theme such courteous habit learnsThat, borne on wings of love,Proudly he soars each viler thought above;Encouraged thus, what long my harass'd heartHas kept conceal'd, I venture to impart.

Yet do I know full wellHow much my praise must wrongful prove to you,But how the great desire can I oppose,Which ever in me grows,Since what surpasses thought 'twas mine to view,Though that nor others' wit nor mine can tell?Eyes! guilty authors of my cherish'd pain,That you alone can judge me, well I know,When from your burning beams I melt like snow,Haply your sweet disdainOffence in my unworthiness may see;Ah! were there not such fear,To calm the heat with which I kindle near,'Twere bliss to die: for better far to meWere death with them than life without could be.

If yet not wasted quite--So frail a thing before so fierce a flame--'Tis not from my own strength that safety came,But that some fear gives might,Freezing the warm blood coursing through its veins,To my poor heart better to bear the strife.O valleys, hills, O forests, floods, and plains,Witnesses of my melancholy life!For death how often have ye heard me pray!Ah, miserable fate!Where flight avails not, though 'tis death to stay;But, if a dread more greatRestrain'd me not, despair would find a way,Speedy and short, my lingering pains to close,--Hers then the crime who still no mercy shows.

Why thus astray, O grief,Lead me to speak what I would leave unsaid?Leave me, where pleasure me impels, to tread:Not now my song complainsOf you, sweet eyes, serene beyond belief,Nor yet of him who binds me in such chains:Right well may you observe the varying huesWhich o'er my visage oft the tyrant strews,And thence may guess what war within he makes,Where night and day he reigns,Strong in the power which from your light he takes:Blessed ye were as bright,Save that from you is barr'd your own dear sight:Yet often as to me those orbs you turn,What they to others are you well may learn.

If, as to us who gazeWere known to you the charms incredibleAnd heavenly, of which I sing the praise,No measured joy would swellYour heart, and haply, therefore, 'tis deniedUnto the power which doth their motions guide.Happy the soul for you which breathes the sigh,Best lights of heaven! for whom I grateful blessThis life, which has for me no other joy.Alas! so seldom whyGive me what I can ne'er too much possess?Why not more often seeThe ceaseless havoc which love makes of me?And why that bliss so quickly from me steal,From time to time which my rapt senses feel?

Yes, thanks, great thanks to you!From time to time I feel through all my soulA sweetness so unusual and new,That every marring careAnd gloomy vision thence begins to roll,So that, from all, one only thought is there.That--that alone consoles me life to bear:And could but this my joy endure awhile,Nought earthly could, methinks, then match my state.Yet such great honour mightEnvy in others, pride in me excite:Thus still it seems the fateOf man, that tears should chase his transient smile:And, checking thus my burning wishes, IBack to myself return, to muse and sigh.

The amorous anxious thought,Which reigns within you, flashes so on me,That from my heart it draws all other joy;Whence works and words so wroughtFind scope and issue, that I hope to beImmortal made, although all flesh must die.At your approach ennui and anguish fly;With your departure they return again:But memory, on the past which doting dwells,Denies them entrance then,So that no outward act their influence tells;Thus, if in me is nurstAny good fruit, from you the seed came first:To you, if such appear, the praise is due,Barren myself till fertilized by you.

Thy strains appease me not, O song!But rather fire me still that theme to singWhere centre all my thoughts--therefore, ere long,A sister ode to join thee will I bring.