The Brothers: Act the Fourth: Scene V

Oh torture to my mind! that this misfortuneShould come thus unexpectedly upon me!I know not what to do, which way to turn.Fear shakes my limbs, amazement fills my soul,And in my breast despair shuts out all counsel.Ah, by what means can I acquit myself?Such a suspicion is now fallen on me;And that too grounded on appearances.Sostrata thinks that on my own accountI bought the Music-Girl. That's plain enoughFrom the old nurse. For meeting her by chance,As she was sent from hence to call a midwife,I ran, and ask'd her of my Pamphila.--"Is she in labor? are you going nowTo call a midwife?"--"Go, go, AEschinus!Away, you have deceiv'd us long enough,Fool'd us enough with your fine promises,"Cried she.--"What now?" says I.--"Farewell, enjoyThe girl that you're so taken with!"--I sawImmediately their cause of jealousy:Yet I contain'd myself, nor would discloseMy brother's business to a tattling gossip,By whom the knowledge on't might be betray'd.--But what shall I do now? shall I confessThe girl to be my brother's; an affairWhich should by no means be reveal'd?--But notTo dwell on that.--Perhaps they'd not disclose it.Nay, I much doubt if they would credit it:So many proofs concur against myself.----I bore her off: I paid the money down;She was brought home to me.--All this, I own,Is my own fault. For should I not have toldMy father, be it as it might, the whole?I should, I doubt not, have obtain'd his leaveTo marry Pamphila.--What indolence,Ev'n, till this hour! now, AEschinus, awake!--But first I'll go and clear myself to them.I'll to the door. (Goes up.) Confusion! how I tremble!How guilty like I seem when I approachThis house! (Knocks.) Holloa! within! 'Tis I;'Tis AEschinus. Come, open somebodyThe door immediately!--Who's here? A stranger!I'll step aside. (Retires.)